Just cuz it's fun... and funny!!!
RULES:Go to Google and type in your first name and the phrase. Copy and paste the first sentence/phrase you get that makes sense.
Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search.
A: JADE NEEDS... mental help really badly (ROTFLMFFAO)
Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search.
A: JADE LOOKS LIKE... rose mcgowan (yeah, ok)
Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
A: JADE SAYS... goodbye at christening (what, am I going to die?)
Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search.
A: JADE WANTS... to save all the money possible (definitely true!!!!)
Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search.
A: JADE DOES... michael jackson (ewwwwwwwwwww... not with a 100 foot pole)
Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search.
A: JADE HATES... college (not really hate... but not love either)
Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search.
A: JADE ASKS... for coke (yummy)
Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search.
A: JADE GOES... wild (who? me? NEVER! hehe)
Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search.
A: JADE LIKES... pubes (that's why I shave... um, ok)
Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search.
A: JADE EATS... people (so now I'm a cannibal)
Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search.
A: JADE WEARS... a very small t-shirt (uh, not so much)
Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search.
A: JADE WAS ARRESTED FOR... several accounts of attempted murder (apparently I fail at killing folks... since they were only attempted... damn)
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Hot n Cold
I love sleeping next to Master.
However, I have found that sleeping next to Master in the wintertime is very different than sleeping next to Him in the summertime. Actually, it's not necessarily just a winter and summer thing... it's more of a hot and cold thing.
Master... well, He radiates heat like no other. Seriously, what is cold to a "normal" person feels good to Master. So, during the winter, it's great sleeping next to Him because it's like having a heating pad that never turns off. Unfortunately, it's starting to get warmer, and even with the fan blowing last night, I was too damn hot and having quite a bit of trouble sleeping.
I'm honestly not sure what W/we're going to do once summer hits. W/we don't have central air, but W/we do have a few of those window air conditioners. I'm hoping that those will be enough to keep me cool during those hot summer months or else W/we may have to come up with other options. I mean, I hardly slept last night with Master tossing and turning and me just being too hot... and I'm tired and cranky (and so I am more or less avoiding Master so that I don't end up saying something stupid). Actually, I've been cranky for the past few days, but that's a story for another time. Either way, I can't go all summer without sleeping, and unless W/we can figure something out, I'm going to end up sleeping on the floor... and I highly doubt that Master would even consider that as an alternative!
*sigh* I've got shit to do... but I just don't wanna. In fact, I just wanna go back to sleep (which I tried this morning, but I couldn't cuz Master was already up and my body was going... NO). *pouts*
Gah. I feel like somebody hit me over the head with a 20 pound mallet. Actually... if I knew what it felt like to get run over by an 18-wheeler... I would probably figure that how I feel now is just about right.
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
However, I have found that sleeping next to Master in the wintertime is very different than sleeping next to Him in the summertime. Actually, it's not necessarily just a winter and summer thing... it's more of a hot and cold thing.
Master... well, He radiates heat like no other. Seriously, what is cold to a "normal" person feels good to Master. So, during the winter, it's great sleeping next to Him because it's like having a heating pad that never turns off. Unfortunately, it's starting to get warmer, and even with the fan blowing last night, I was too damn hot and having quite a bit of trouble sleeping.
I'm honestly not sure what W/we're going to do once summer hits. W/we don't have central air, but W/we do have a few of those window air conditioners. I'm hoping that those will be enough to keep me cool during those hot summer months or else W/we may have to come up with other options. I mean, I hardly slept last night with Master tossing and turning and me just being too hot... and I'm tired and cranky (and so I am more or less avoiding Master so that I don't end up saying something stupid). Actually, I've been cranky for the past few days, but that's a story for another time. Either way, I can't go all summer without sleeping, and unless W/we can figure something out, I'm going to end up sleeping on the floor... and I highly doubt that Master would even consider that as an alternative!
*sigh* I've got shit to do... but I just don't wanna. In fact, I just wanna go back to sleep (which I tried this morning, but I couldn't cuz Master was already up and my body was going... NO). *pouts*
Gah. I feel like somebody hit me over the head with a 20 pound mallet. Actually... if I knew what it felt like to get run over by an 18-wheeler... I would probably figure that how I feel now is just about right.
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Have you ever felt...
Angry, when you shouldn't have been?
Sad, when there was really no reason to be?
Scared, of something stupid?
Worried, about things that are out of your control?
Confused, about all the things you're feeling?
Safe, at a time when you normally may not?
I've felt all of those things, and more, over the past few days. It's been a lot of ups and downs and loop-de-loops... going round and round and round. All these feelings are leaving me exhausted. I don't think I've ever been so tired after just waking up in the morning. It's like, I feel as though my heart is running a marathon and my physical body is lagging behind and can't catch up. I'm trying to put all of my feelings of doubt and worry and confusion to the side and focus on Master, but that's a lot easier said than done.
But anyways, enough about that. I'm going to focus on that last little feeling... or BIG feeling... because I think I really need to.
Let me start by saying this, I am a strong girl... always have been. I'm not a tiny little pixie princess who's fragile and frail. I can lift heavy things and hold my own in a fight (I know because I've done it). I'm also a big girl... not obese (though the BMI charts all tell me I am)... but a big girl. For the longest time, I was VERY uncomfortable with myself and my body... hell, who am I kidding? I STILL am... but not around Master so much anymore. Even as strong as I am, Master is stronger. It honestly surprises me just how strong He really is because I sometimes do forget when W/we haven't been, um, physical for awhile.
Anyways, the other night, Master and I had words regarding O/our relationship. W/we weren't yelling or screaming or anything like that, but W/we had words. Well, last night, Master decided to be... um, well... Master. He actually started being a bit more like He was when I first met Him, and I realized just how well I do read Him and His wants/needs. And for the first time in a long time, I really felt totally and completely loved. It's not that He ever makes me feel unloved (at least not intentionally... and most of it is my perception of things)... it's just that W/we slid so far away from the life W/we want to live and I'm quite sure it was hurting both of U/us, whether or not W/we realized it.
Then, He decided to take what was His last night at bedtime. It was just Him and me... with Him using His body to restrain me. At one point, He asked me if I was scared and I shook my head "no" (I wasn't able to talk at this point in time) and He said "You should always be a little bit scared." And a thought went through my head... He loves me and I know He's never going to hurt me (like really hurt me... in the bad way), why should I be scared? I think there has been only ONE time where He actually scared me...
I guess it's one of those, there are different faces of "scared"... and with Master, it's not necessarily the fear of what is going to happen. Instead, it's the fear of not knowing what is going to happen. It's like, whatever happens, I know Master is right there and will protect me and not actually hurt me... but at the same time, Master can be so mysterious that I never know what He's going to do, and that part's a little bit frightening. It's not the "what" that scares me, it's the "not knowing" that scares me.
So, Master took me and did whatever He wanted... and while I'm somewhat sore from my head down to my toes... I keep replaying it over and over in my head and smiling.
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
Sad, when there was really no reason to be?
Scared, of something stupid?
Worried, about things that are out of your control?
Confused, about all the things you're feeling?
Safe, at a time when you normally may not?
I've felt all of those things, and more, over the past few days. It's been a lot of ups and downs and loop-de-loops... going round and round and round. All these feelings are leaving me exhausted. I don't think I've ever been so tired after just waking up in the morning. It's like, I feel as though my heart is running a marathon and my physical body is lagging behind and can't catch up. I'm trying to put all of my feelings of doubt and worry and confusion to the side and focus on Master, but that's a lot easier said than done.
But anyways, enough about that. I'm going to focus on that last little feeling... or BIG feeling... because I think I really need to.
Let me start by saying this, I am a strong girl... always have been. I'm not a tiny little pixie princess who's fragile and frail. I can lift heavy things and hold my own in a fight (I know because I've done it). I'm also a big girl... not obese (though the BMI charts all tell me I am)... but a big girl. For the longest time, I was VERY uncomfortable with myself and my body... hell, who am I kidding? I STILL am... but not around Master so much anymore. Even as strong as I am, Master is stronger. It honestly surprises me just how strong He really is because I sometimes do forget when W/we haven't been, um, physical for awhile.
Anyways, the other night, Master and I had words regarding O/our relationship. W/we weren't yelling or screaming or anything like that, but W/we had words. Well, last night, Master decided to be... um, well... Master. He actually started being a bit more like He was when I first met Him, and I realized just how well I do read Him and His wants/needs. And for the first time in a long time, I really felt totally and completely loved. It's not that He ever makes me feel unloved (at least not intentionally... and most of it is my perception of things)... it's just that W/we slid so far away from the life W/we want to live and I'm quite sure it was hurting both of U/us, whether or not W/we realized it.
Then, He decided to take what was His last night at bedtime. It was just Him and me... with Him using His body to restrain me. At one point, He asked me if I was scared and I shook my head "no" (I wasn't able to talk at this point in time) and He said "You should always be a little bit scared." And a thought went through my head... He loves me and I know He's never going to hurt me (like really hurt me... in the bad way), why should I be scared? I think there has been only ONE time where He actually scared me...
I guess it's one of those, there are different faces of "scared"... and with Master, it's not necessarily the fear of what is going to happen. Instead, it's the fear of not knowing what is going to happen. It's like, whatever happens, I know Master is right there and will protect me and not actually hurt me... but at the same time, Master can be so mysterious that I never know what He's going to do, and that part's a little bit frightening. It's not the "what" that scares me, it's the "not knowing" that scares me.
So, Master took me and did whatever He wanted... and while I'm somewhat sore from my head down to my toes... I keep replaying it over and over in my head and smiling.
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
Friday, March 20, 2009
Flowers
I got flowers today.
Not really sure why exactly... but I have a feeling it's for 2 reasons.
One... because I am sick. I woke up Tuesday with this HORRIBLE cough, but I was feeling fine otherwise. Honestly, it felt somewhat like having an elephant sitting on my chest. lol However, yesterday (while driving back from visiting my grandparents) I started to feel REALLY shitty. Actually, I started feeling shitty before I even left their house, but I didn't say anything because they (and my dad) would have started fretting... so I just kept quiet. Well, because I was SO cold and my entire body was achy, I decided to take my temperature when I got home to see whether or not I was running a fever... and lo and behold, it was 102. So, needless to say, I've been feeling less than great all day, though the fever DID break sometime early this morning. And of course W/we got Master's son yesterday night (which was planned way in advance) because he didn't have school today... and he's been sick too. So, taking care of a sick 5 year old while feeling like shit myself isn't my idea of fun, but thankfully, he's a good kid for the most part... and we just watched movies and played dinosaurs all day while Master was at work. It was a pretty low-key day, though it would have been nice to catch a nap (though I just got word that the 5 year old has fallen asleep on the couch... which means that, if he wakes up, he'll be a bear to get to bed tonight... so pray that he just sleeps)!!!
And the other reason is... Master has been a bit snippy, for lack of a better word, with me lately. Now, I don't really blame Him. He's got so much on His plate... He is so stressed and so frustrated and so worried... that He's just snapping at every little thing. Well, a day or two ago I actually got to talk to Him about it. I told Him that He'd been snapping so much lately about everything and it's got me scared to say and/or do anything because I never know what His reaction is going to be... but I also told Him that I didn't really blame Him but that He needed to not necessarily take His anger/frustration/worry out on me because I'm not the source of those feelings and I don't deserve it. I deal with it because I love Him and I am His... and I'm not going to "tell" Him what to do (though I have no problems voicing my opinions and feelings)... but at the same time, W/we have to stand united and work together. He can't keep pushing me away. Well, in the end He just looked at me and said, "I really don't meant to snap." And apparently He was talking to His mother (who knows somewhat of the lifestyle W/we live) yesterday and she told Him that He shouldn't be snapping at me... I'm not really sure because He told me yesterday while W/we were lying in bed and I was in and out of a feverish sleep. lol
Anyways, I think that the flowers are His way of saying "I'm sorry" and "I love you." And you know what they say... "actions speak louder than words." Don't get me wrong, I love hearing the words because I know that He means it, but words can sometimes be empty. Really, it's the little things that He does that speaks volumes.
I know that nothing in O/our relationship is going to be perfect... that W/we're both going to have good days and bad days... but He is wonderful and I couldn't ask for more.
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
Not really sure why exactly... but I have a feeling it's for 2 reasons.
One... because I am sick. I woke up Tuesday with this HORRIBLE cough, but I was feeling fine otherwise. Honestly, it felt somewhat like having an elephant sitting on my chest. lol However, yesterday (while driving back from visiting my grandparents) I started to feel REALLY shitty. Actually, I started feeling shitty before I even left their house, but I didn't say anything because they (and my dad) would have started fretting... so I just kept quiet. Well, because I was SO cold and my entire body was achy, I decided to take my temperature when I got home to see whether or not I was running a fever... and lo and behold, it was 102. So, needless to say, I've been feeling less than great all day, though the fever DID break sometime early this morning. And of course W/we got Master's son yesterday night (which was planned way in advance) because he didn't have school today... and he's been sick too. So, taking care of a sick 5 year old while feeling like shit myself isn't my idea of fun, but thankfully, he's a good kid for the most part... and we just watched movies and played dinosaurs all day while Master was at work. It was a pretty low-key day, though it would have been nice to catch a nap (though I just got word that the 5 year old has fallen asleep on the couch... which means that, if he wakes up, he'll be a bear to get to bed tonight... so pray that he just sleeps)!!!
And the other reason is... Master has been a bit snippy, for lack of a better word, with me lately. Now, I don't really blame Him. He's got so much on His plate... He is so stressed and so frustrated and so worried... that He's just snapping at every little thing. Well, a day or two ago I actually got to talk to Him about it. I told Him that He'd been snapping so much lately about everything and it's got me scared to say and/or do anything because I never know what His reaction is going to be... but I also told Him that I didn't really blame Him but that He needed to not necessarily take His anger/frustration/worry out on me because I'm not the source of those feelings and I don't deserve it. I deal with it because I love Him and I am His... and I'm not going to "tell" Him what to do (though I have no problems voicing my opinions and feelings)... but at the same time, W/we have to stand united and work together. He can't keep pushing me away. Well, in the end He just looked at me and said, "I really don't meant to snap." And apparently He was talking to His mother (who knows somewhat of the lifestyle W/we live) yesterday and she told Him that He shouldn't be snapping at me... I'm not really sure because He told me yesterday while W/we were lying in bed and I was in and out of a feverish sleep. lol
Anyways, I think that the flowers are His way of saying "I'm sorry" and "I love you." And you know what they say... "actions speak louder than words." Don't get me wrong, I love hearing the words because I know that He means it, but words can sometimes be empty. Really, it's the little things that He does that speaks volumes.
I know that nothing in O/our relationship is going to be perfect... that W/we're both going to have good days and bad days... but He is wonderful and I couldn't ask for more.
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Frustrated + Confused + Angry =
DONE!
Not really... but I sure as hell am REALLY fuckin tired of Him pushing me away like this. Maybe He's really not "trying" to do it, but that's certainly how it feels. I know W/we're both insanely stressed right now, but W/we need to work together... not be torn apart. I keep trying and trying and trying... and it feels like I'm running my fucking head against a brick wall again and again and again.
I love Him and I miss Him like crazy.
It's all I can do to not let the darkness win.
"You never know how strong you really are until being strong is your only choice."
<3>
"Last Resort" -Papa Roach
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck
If I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort
Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck
If I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care
If I died bleeding?
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight
And I'm contemplating suicide
Cause I'm losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell I'm fine
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higer level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying(x4)
I can't go on living this way
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck
If I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chancers are that I might.
Mutilation out of sight.
And I'm contemplating suicide.
Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebode would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I can't go on living this way
Can't go on
Living this way
Nothing's al...right
Not really... but I sure as hell am REALLY fuckin tired of Him pushing me away like this. Maybe He's really not "trying" to do it, but that's certainly how it feels. I know W/we're both insanely stressed right now, but W/we need to work together... not be torn apart. I keep trying and trying and trying... and it feels like I'm running my fucking head against a brick wall again and again and again.
I love Him and I miss Him like crazy.
It's all I can do to not let the darkness win.
"You never know how strong you really are until being strong is your only choice."
<3>
"Last Resort" -Papa Roach
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck
If I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort
Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck
If I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care
If I died bleeding?
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight
And I'm contemplating suicide
Cause I'm losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell I'm fine
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higer level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight,
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying(x4)
I can't go on living this way
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck
If I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chancers are that I might.
Mutilation out of sight.
And I'm contemplating suicide.
Cause I'm losing my sight
Losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebode would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I can't go on living this way
Can't go on
Living this way
Nothing's al...right
Monday, March 16, 2009
It's just a Rollercoaster Ride
Life is... interesting.
Sometimes I wonder if it will ever slow down and be "normal." But then I say to myself, "really, what is normal?"
In all honesty, "normal," to me anyways, is whatever we make of each day.
Right now, for myself and Master, normal is: unbelievable stress and anger (not at each other, thank god), a pain-in-the-ass ex who won't go away, and unwaivering love.
I think it's the last of that list that keeps me going every single day. It's what gets me up in the morning, gets me through the day, and lets me (kind of) sleep at night. Really, it's the only constant thing in my life... the fact that I love Master and He loves me. Without O/our love... without each O/other... I think W/we would both probably go completely crazy right now.
To make a long story short...
I absolutely HATE Master's (most recent) ex. She's is a superficial BITCH who will never learn and who will never take responsibility for anything. Right now, she is trying to drag Master and I through hell with MORE of her lies and bullshit. I really can't believe somebody could be so psychotic, but apparently she is. It's ridiculous really. She's just being cruel, vindictive and manipulative... and she's throwing a temper tantrum because she "lost."
I know what she wants. She wants to pull U/us apart... to break U/us up... and to hurt U/us. Well, it's not working. W/we're still together and plan to stay that way... forever. W/we're not going to let her win. Together, Master and I are stronger, better, and smarter than she is (not that W/we aren't if W/we were apart, but that's a whole different story). It's a whole lot of "whatever, bitch" right now.
Things are tough right now... but W/we are tougher.
But for those who are willing, W/we could use a whole lot of good vibes, prayers, etc... it'd be much appreciated.
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
Sometimes I wonder if it will ever slow down and be "normal." But then I say to myself, "really, what is normal?"
In all honesty, "normal," to me anyways, is whatever we make of each day.
Right now, for myself and Master, normal is: unbelievable stress and anger (not at each other, thank god), a pain-in-the-ass ex who won't go away, and unwaivering love.
I think it's the last of that list that keeps me going every single day. It's what gets me up in the morning, gets me through the day, and lets me (kind of) sleep at night. Really, it's the only constant thing in my life... the fact that I love Master and He loves me. Without O/our love... without each O/other... I think W/we would both probably go completely crazy right now.
To make a long story short...
I absolutely HATE Master's (most recent) ex. She's is a superficial BITCH who will never learn and who will never take responsibility for anything. Right now, she is trying to drag Master and I through hell with MORE of her lies and bullshit. I really can't believe somebody could be so psychotic, but apparently she is. It's ridiculous really. She's just being cruel, vindictive and manipulative... and she's throwing a temper tantrum because she "lost."
I know what she wants. She wants to pull U/us apart... to break U/us up... and to hurt U/us. Well, it's not working. W/we're still together and plan to stay that way... forever. W/we're not going to let her win. Together, Master and I are stronger, better, and smarter than she is (not that W/we aren't if W/we were apart, but that's a whole different story). It's a whole lot of "whatever, bitch" right now.
Things are tough right now... but W/we are tougher.
But for those who are willing, W/we could use a whole lot of good vibes, prayers, etc... it'd be much appreciated.
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Tough times ahead
Tough times ahead... for Master and for me...
She is getting just what she wanted... putting Master and me through the ringer like this. She is just playing the part of the "jilted" lover... and being manipulative and vengeful... playing any and every card she can think of... including lying.
Whatever she has done... it's going to put Master and me through hell.
*sigh*
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
"How Do I Live" -Trisha Yearwood
How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
You're my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you'd take away everything good in my life.
And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?
Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I would be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in My life
And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever ever survive
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?
Please tell me baby..
How do I go on?
If you ever leave
Well baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know you're everything good in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
O how do I live
How do I live without you
How do I live without you baby...
How do I live...
She is getting just what she wanted... putting Master and me through the ringer like this. She is just playing the part of the "jilted" lover... and being manipulative and vengeful... playing any and every card she can think of... including lying.
Whatever she has done... it's going to put Master and me through hell.
*sigh*
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
"How Do I Live" -Trisha Yearwood
How do I
Get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kind of life would that be?
Oh I need you in my arms
Need you to hold
You're my world my heart my soul
If you ever leave
Baby you'd take away everything good in my life.
And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?
Without you
There'd be no sun in my sky
There would be no love in my life
There would be no world left for me
And I
Baby I don't know what I would do
I would be lost if I lost you
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away everything real in My life
And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever ever survive
How do I
How do I
O how do I live?
Please tell me baby..
How do I go on?
If you ever leave
Well baby you would take away everything
Need you with me
Baby don't you know you're everything good in my life
And tell me now
How do I live without you
I want to know
How do I breathe without you
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I
How do I
O how do I live
How do I live without you
How do I live without you baby...
How do I live...
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Hmm...
Hmm... Interesting...
http://www.beliefnet.com/Entertainment/Quizzes/BeliefOMatic.aspx
Your Results
The top score on the list below represents the faith that Belief-O-Matic, in its less than infinite wisdom, thinks most closely matches your beliefs. However, even a score of 100% does not mean that your views are all shared by this faith, or vice versa.
Belief-O-Matic then lists another 26 faiths in order of how much they have in common with your professed beliefs. The higher a faith appears on this list, the more closely it aligns with your thinking.
1.
Neo-Pagan (100%)
2.
Mahayana Buddhism (99%)
3.
Jainism (99%)
4.
Liberal Quakers (87%)
5.
Unitarian Universalism (86%)
6.
Reform Judaism (85%)
7.
Theravada Buddhism (85%)
8.
New Age (82%)
9.
Sikhism (79%)
10.
Hinduism (79%)
11.
Baha'i Faith (73%)
12.
Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (73%)
13.
Orthodox Quaker (72%)
14.
Orthodox Judaism (68%)
15.
Islam (59%)
16.
Taoism (59%)
17.
New Thought (55%)
18.
Secular Humanism (52%)
19.
Scientology (47%)
20.
Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (43%)
21.
Seventh Day Adventist (40%)
22.
Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (40%)
23.
Jehovah's Witness (32%)
24.
Eastern Orthodox (32%)
25.
Roman Catholic (32%)
26.
Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (31%)
27.
Nontheist (30%)
What got into Master?
Let me start by saying this...
9 times out of 10, if I ask something of Master, He will do it. There have been times when I have needed Him to turn the crock pot to "warm" or to take something out of the freezer for dinner... things like that. And He has never had a problem doing it if I ask Him. However, He's never really helped me with cleaning and stuff around the house. While it does bother to me to some extent, I can understand His reasonings as to why He doesn't pick up and clean (mainly because He doesn't know where I want things so that I can find them, etc... since it is mainly my duty to perform household chores, I need to know where to find things). Well, in my eyes, there are still things that He could do but doesn't... but I try not to bring it up because it's my responsibility and duty to make Master happy, which includes doing whatever housework needs to be done. Plus, it's not my place to tell Master what to do... and so I do my best to bite my tongue.
Well, for the past week or so, I have been nursing this horrible headache. It's actually been off and on for about 6 months, but it's gotten worse in the past week or so. I attribute a lot of it to being overly tired and rundown. Well, when I got home from work on Sunday, Master took one look at me and told me to lie down for a little while. Well, I told Him that I had too much to do and that I couldn't rest. In the end, He left it up to me whether or not I was going to lay down. Eventually, I did lay down... with the intention of resting for about 30 minutes and then going and doing whatever it was that I had to do.
Well, to make a long story short... I laid down to rest... and promptly fell asleep for about 2 hours. When I woke up, I was angry with myself for sleeping that long, but I honestly felt better. My headache had been reduced to a dull throb and I didn't feel like I was walking through a dense fog. So, in retrospect, it was a good thing. I needed to take care of my body... and I'm pretty sure that Master realized how badly I was hurting and knew that, if I didn't rest, I would be completely useless (in ALL aspects).
I'm not sure what got into Master, but while I was sleeping, He logged off His game and did stuff around the house. In addition to installing the new showerhead and toiletseat (which were thing that He was going to do anyways), He cleaned the toilet (which had to be done before installing the seat) and did the laundry that I'd been working on!
Of course, when I woke up, Master didn't say at word that He had done all of this. Instead, He let me find out on my own. And when I did find out, I was honestly shocked. I didn't know what to say, so I gave Master a kiss on the cheek and simply said, "thank you." While I was extremely appreciative that He did all those things for me, I felt (and still do feel) slightly guilty that Master had to do them because I couldn't. I guess that goes to show that, if you do something you are supposed to do (even if it's as simple as laying down and resting), you get rewarded... sometimes in the most surprising and interesting ways!
Either way, Master surprised me... in a big big big way!
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
9 times out of 10, if I ask something of Master, He will do it. There have been times when I have needed Him to turn the crock pot to "warm" or to take something out of the freezer for dinner... things like that. And He has never had a problem doing it if I ask Him. However, He's never really helped me with cleaning and stuff around the house. While it does bother to me to some extent, I can understand His reasonings as to why He doesn't pick up and clean (mainly because He doesn't know where I want things so that I can find them, etc... since it is mainly my duty to perform household chores, I need to know where to find things). Well, in my eyes, there are still things that He could do but doesn't... but I try not to bring it up because it's my responsibility and duty to make Master happy, which includes doing whatever housework needs to be done. Plus, it's not my place to tell Master what to do... and so I do my best to bite my tongue.
Well, for the past week or so, I have been nursing this horrible headache. It's actually been off and on for about 6 months, but it's gotten worse in the past week or so. I attribute a lot of it to being overly tired and rundown. Well, when I got home from work on Sunday, Master took one look at me and told me to lie down for a little while. Well, I told Him that I had too much to do and that I couldn't rest. In the end, He left it up to me whether or not I was going to lay down. Eventually, I did lay down... with the intention of resting for about 30 minutes and then going and doing whatever it was that I had to do.
Well, to make a long story short... I laid down to rest... and promptly fell asleep for about 2 hours. When I woke up, I was angry with myself for sleeping that long, but I honestly felt better. My headache had been reduced to a dull throb and I didn't feel like I was walking through a dense fog. So, in retrospect, it was a good thing. I needed to take care of my body... and I'm pretty sure that Master realized how badly I was hurting and knew that, if I didn't rest, I would be completely useless (in ALL aspects).
I'm not sure what got into Master, but while I was sleeping, He logged off His game and did stuff around the house. In addition to installing the new showerhead and toiletseat (which were thing that He was going to do anyways), He cleaned the toilet (which had to be done before installing the seat) and did the laundry that I'd been working on!
Of course, when I woke up, Master didn't say at word that He had done all of this. Instead, He let me find out on my own. And when I did find out, I was honestly shocked. I didn't know what to say, so I gave Master a kiss on the cheek and simply said, "thank you." While I was extremely appreciative that He did all those things for me, I felt (and still do feel) slightly guilty that Master had to do them because I couldn't. I guess that goes to show that, if you do something you are supposed to do (even if it's as simple as laying down and resting), you get rewarded... sometimes in the most surprising and interesting ways!
Either way, Master surprised me... in a big big big way!
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
Sunday, March 1, 2009
What do you do when...
All you want to do is sit down and cry?
I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I've been a hormonal, over-emotional wreck. I mean, I'm sitting here eating a bowl of cereal before going into work this morning, and ALL I want to do is cry. I can feel the tears stinging my eyes and I keep blinking... trying to keep them back.
Right now, it's like I don't give a shit about anything. But at the same time, I do... which is making everything so much harder. I'm exhausted... my head is killing me... my body aches. I have about 2 billion things to get done today when I get home from work, but I'll be lucky to get through just a few (if I get through any at all).
I can't live like this. It's hurting Master, and it's killing me... and it's wreaking havoc on O/our relationship. I take everything personally, and I'm on the verge of snapping.
I'm so lost... and I just want to cry.
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I've been a hormonal, over-emotional wreck. I mean, I'm sitting here eating a bowl of cereal before going into work this morning, and ALL I want to do is cry. I can feel the tears stinging my eyes and I keep blinking... trying to keep them back.
Right now, it's like I don't give a shit about anything. But at the same time, I do... which is making everything so much harder. I'm exhausted... my head is killing me... my body aches. I have about 2 billion things to get done today when I get home from work, but I'll be lucky to get through just a few (if I get through any at all).
I can't live like this. It's hurting Master, and it's killing me... and it's wreaking havoc on O/our relationship. I take everything personally, and I'm on the verge of snapping.
I'm so lost... and I just want to cry.
<3 Master's lil one, Jade
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