It's Been Awhile...

I guess that really sums it up... it's been awhile.

Things around here are, well, things. There's really not too much going on... nothing really good or bad. It's kind of stagnant... monotonous... generic. It's like... same shit, different day... nothing ever changes.

Sometimes, I'm not sure what to do with myself. I get up in the morning, go to work, come home from work, and crash. That's pretty much how my day goes. I'm still working about 65 or so hours per week in a 6 day work week. And even the 1 day a week that I have off I am usually running around doing something or another. So, I suppose I don't often really have a day "off" from work because I am always working.

As of late, I feel kind of "off." I'm moody and something just doesn't feel right. It's nothing that anybody else is doing really. I'm not sure if it's sleep deprivation or the change of season or what, but I'm happy one minute, frustrated the next... angry, sad, etc. I'm not sure what's going on, but even my cat has been acting weird. He's not the type of lovey cat... only really wants affection on his own terms... but for the past week or so, he's been up my butt. He's been sleeping near my feet at night (or in Master's spot when I first go to bed) and laying right by my chair at the computer or right by me when I'm watching TV on the couch. They say that animals have a 6th sense and know when something is happening/going to happen... I just hope it's nothing bad.

I've been listening to the same songs over and over again (Heart "Alone" and Roxette "Listen to Your Heart" and a select few others). It's not really all that abnormal for me because, when I find a song I really like or haven't heard in awhile, I listen to it to death. But it's like, I'm stuck in a rut and having trouble getting myself out of it. I feel as though I'm always complaining about something or another. Maybe it's just me... maybe it's something else... but something in my gut is telling me something's not right and I can't put my finger on it. Perhaps I'm just paranoid...

<3 Master's lil one, Jade