Wowzers

4 Days until Christmas!!!

Well, we're pretty much done with our Christmas shopping... finally! I can't believe how long we procrastinated this year. Usually, I'm the weird one that starts Christmas shopping at the end of September and is done by mid/end of November! lol I think we may have a few odds and ends left, but it's nothing major. Tomorrow starts the wrapping of the zillion and 1 presents we have sitting in a large pile in the other room! I'll be glad when Christmas day is here and everything will be unwrapped and everybody will ooooh and ahhh over what they received and I won't have to worry about picking out gifts for another 365 days! lol I love Christmas... I really do. But this year has been probably the singularly most stressful Christmas ever! lol

I work tomorrow at my "full-time" job and then I work my second job Thursday and Friday for a few hours in the morning. I just can't wait til Saturday... /sigh

Ok, now I need to help the man with his email crap. lol

<3 Jade

Epic Failure

12 Days until Christmas!

Ok, so my goal of making a post every day this month until Christmas epically failed. lol I kind of had a feeling that it would happen sooner or later... especially with having the kid almost every weekend this month. Oh well. I put up a good fight and I'm pretty proud of myself at how well I actually did for as long as I did!

Well, on another note, 2 class down... 2 to go (1 more day) until winter break. I'm just counting down the days until Friday. I mean, this weekend isn't going to be all too restful, but at least I won't have to worry about doing homework and whatever else come Sunday because I've been so blasted busy during the week and weekend.

For now, however, I shall be going to sleep and dreaming sweet dreams of Christmas!

<3 Jade

First Snow

15 Days until Christmas!!!

We had our first snow of the year today! :-) It wasn't much more than a dusting and it didn't fall for very long, but I can still see it on the grass and bushes and trees outside. It will probably melt away in a very short time... but still, I enjoy the snow. It makes me happy.

And now, I shall go to bed and dream of snow. :-D

<3 Jade

Nonsense

16 Days until Christmas!

So, I have decided that it needs to be next week like NOW! lol I'm having such a hard time waiting for my semester to be over. I only have 2 days (a grand total of 4 classes) left before winter break and I can't wait. I need a break. I need to be able to sleep and spend some time with my family and friends. Oh, and I can't forget that I need a massive amount of time to go SHOPPING since I haven't hardly gotten any Christmas presents yet! lol I'm usually not this bad when it comes to getting Christmas gifts, but we've been so broke this year that it's all I can do to just be able to afford gas and groceries! But things are starting to look up for us a little bit, and I know we'll be ok. It's less than 5 months until graduation and I'll be making more than twice as much as I'm making now. Gawd... all this money talk is making me so seriously depressed...

There was something that I wanted to write about the other day, but now I can't remember what it is. DOH! lol That's what I get for procrastinating I guess. I'll probably remember AFTER I publish this post tonight... which means I'll either have to edit the post or start a new one (and save it so that I can post it tomorrow instead of tonight). Oh well. C'est la vie. My brain is being sucked out of my head from lack of sleep and relaxation. I'm just excited that I'll be going to my mommy's to visit her in just a few short weeks. I haven't seen my mom since this summer and I can't wait to go... I love visiting her. :-)

Ok, I'm just rambling in non-nonsensical sequences of nothingness now. lol So I'm going to do 100 other things that I really should be doing right now!

<3 Jade

So Much...

17 Days until Christmas!

So much to write about... so little time. lol

Unfortunately, it's already after 10 p.m. and I have to be up early tomorrow. So, that being said, all my stuff is going to have to wait until another night! lol YAY for leaving everybody in suspense... hehe

<3 Jade

I'm Wishing...

18 Days until Christmas!

I am wishing for snow. However, there is a stipulation on that wish... it may NOT snow while I'm traveling either to or from Maryland and it may NOT snow while I'm traveling either to or from Pittsburgh during the Christmas holiday! lol I hate driving in the snow (though I also hate driving in the rain). I don't mind it being on the ground so much... I just don't like it falling from the sky when I'm traveling long distances!

And that, folks, is all. I hope to post something a little bit more substantial one of these days. But it's the end of the semester and I'm exhausted. lol

<3 Jade

His Domination

19 Days until Christmas!

I have decided something... something a little bit silly to many but quite profound to me...

I am an extremely happy girl the day after the man takes control of me. *ahem* And by that I mean he does the whole "dominating" thing. It wasn't much last night, but it was enough to get me through today. If I didn't have a smile on my lips and a song in my heart all day that I could trace back to last night, then I would know that the whole lifestyle thing isn't for me. But because I was in a good mood all day and kept thinking about last night, it means something HUGE to me.

I enjoyed last night thoroughly. :-D I'm a little bruised up, but I enjoy looking at my "battle scars." lol I'm not really sore, though if I honestly ask myself, I've been aching for more. I hate the long periods of sedentary time between our little bouts of kink. It's driving me nuts... but at the same time, I understand why. It's hard to get into any type of scene when you live in the basement of your father's house and you never know when he may pop in (though he's rarely here... he really mostly lives at his fiance's house). It's complicated... so I take what I can get and love every moment of it.

Now, I think I may go relax in bed (since I got out of class early) and dream sweet dreams of his domination...

<3 Jade

Christmas and more Christmas

20 Days until Christmas!

We did a bit more Christmas shopping today. However, we still have so many gifts to buy... it's ridiculous. Although I love having a big family, it's a pain during Christmas time because it's like 100 presents later and you're still not close to being done! lol Oh well. It would help, though, if my mother would get back to me about what my youngest sister and brother want this year. They're still young enough that their interests change about every 5 milli-seconds! Unfortunately, it's going to be hard to get any shopping done the next few weekends because we have the man's son next weekend and the weekend after that we're going to visit his mom to celebrate her birthday with the family. So, I have a distinct feeling that the week before Christmas is going to be full of shopping and running around like chickens with our heads cut off! lol

Right now, I am waiting on my laundry to finish up and then I'm going to take a shower... so I'm going to leave it here for the night.

<3 Jade

A Little Here and a Little There

21 Days until Christmas!

So, we did just a bit of Christmas shopping tonight. It's depressing, really... looking at prices and having to scrutinize every little thing in order to decide what to buy and what not to buy because you're so broke that you can literally see the black hole that was once your bank account. /sigh

But anywho... at least we have a few things picked up now. And maybe we'll hit up a few more stores tomorrow. We can't spend too much, though, until I get my next paycheck and even then it's going to be tight. It is what it is and I can't change it. I'm just doing the best I can with what we have and I'm learning to be ok with it because it WILL eventually change... once I graduate! lol

For now, I think I'm going to go chill out and read and eventually pass out.

<3 Jade

Proud of Me

22 Days until Christmas!

I am quite proud of myself tonight. I finished almost all of my homework (except for 1 thing, but I can't do that until the document is emailed to me) AND my paperwork! :-D YAY for a relatively homework/work-free weekend!

I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. I'm going to actually have time to relax this weekend... it's going to be so freaking weird. AND we don't have the kid... so it's not like I'm going to be bombarded with 100 questions every 30 seconds! lol

Perhaps I will actually feel rested at the end of this weekend instead of completely and utterly exhausted! Only 2 more weeks until the semester is over... I can't believe how quickly everything is flying by right now. I only have like 4 months until graduation and I will have my MSW... it seems like I've barely graduated from college. Damn... I AM educated! lol

There's so much I could say right now, but I'm going to end this on a cheerful note (instead of a somewhat gloomy and depressing one). Perhaps next time...

<3 Jade

Nothing to Say

23 Days until Christmas!

So, I really have nothing to say today... so this shall be my blog for the night.

Pathetic, really.

<3 Jade

A Thought-Provoking Event

24 Days til Christmas

It is my goal this month to post a new blog every day until Christmas. Why am I making this my goal, you may be asking yourself. Well, I've decided that I have been much happier since I started blogging (more regularly) again and getting all of my thoughts and feelings out of my head and into something tangible I can understand. Plus, it makes for a nice little countdown of the days until Christmas (which I look forward to every year... even though we're broke and really can't afford Christmas presents for anybody this year).

So, anywho... onto the topic of tonight's blog...

For those who don't know, I have a part-time job in retail. So, Black Friday being the biggest shopping day of the year, I had to work a 12 hour shift (3 a.m. until 3 p.m.) at my store. Well, I was at the jewelry counter, which just so happens to be right by the main door, when I see these people walk in that were stereotypically "gothed" out in their choice of clothes. The girls were in corset-style tops and extremely short, school-girl style plaid skirts (like, short enough to see their butt cheeks hanging out from the bottom of the skirts) and the guys were in baggy black pants with chains. But the most noticeable was the black studded leashes attached to the collars around the guys' necks that lead into the girls' hands (yes, we're talking the atypically seen male subs and female Dommes). The one guy had his hands handcuffed behind his back and then cuffed to the back belt loop of his pants. The other guy, although he had handcuffs around his wrist, had his hands free and hanging down by his side. Then, when they girls were paying for their stuff, the guys knelt on the floor by the register until they were done. Once the transaction was completed, the girls tugged on the leashes and said "Up. Come." and the guys did... and followed them out of the store.

Of course, this became a major hot-topic during the entire day of Black Friday among all of the employees. A lot of people thought it was done on a dare (because, really, there are people out there that would do something like that just in order to get a reaction out of people), but I can't see it being a dare because the couples were in their 30's-ish. If they had been 18-19 year olds, I could have seen it... but not at the age of 30 or so.

Personally, I don't give a flying fuck what type of lifestyle people want to live (duh). However, this event really disturbed a lot of people at work. A lot of my co-workers that are my age had the attitude of "live how you want, just don't bring it here," but a lot of the older ones were just downright disgusted by it. And honestly, I can see the point-of-view of both groups of people. After I was done working, I had a brief conversation with the man about this, and he was all gung-ho about it... with the attitude of "if this country wasn't so ass-puckered..." (yes, those were his exact words). I can see his side of it too though. Society is still so stuck up today that anything that deviates from the "norm" is considered heinous and improper. Too many people still don't want to consider that there are different lifestyle choices and that we are all free to make whatever lifestyle choice we want.

However, I have a BIG problem with people flaunting their choices and being downright inconsiderate of other people. I have always been that way... ever since I can remember. It is my personal belief that you can be whoever you want to be and still have tact and respect for other people. I suppose part of it is my social worker side talking when I think about the impact an event like that can have on children and people who may have been abused. For goodness sakes, it's a place where families go and take their children. Yes, I think that parents have the duty to speak to their children about things like this and inform them about all the differences in the world, but at the same time, I don't think that people should flaunt their lifestyle differences in front of other people. There has to be give and take on BOTH sides... not just one side or the other.

It's like... I don't want to see a homosexual couple with their tongues down each others' throats in the middle of the mall just the same as I don't want to see a heterosexual couple with their tongues down each others; throats in the middle of the mall. I don't discriminate on the two-tongue-tango based on sexuality... it's all the same to me. Sorry, I do NOT want to see it in a public place. It's rude, inconsiderate, and just down right tacky. The event that occurred on Black Friday falls into the same category. Be tactful and respectful of others when you're in public. Period.

I even talked to my mom about it (who has similar lifestyle tastes lol), and she is in full agreement with me. There are some aspects of the BDSM lifestyle that you can take out into public... but black studded leashes and inappropriate dress is NOT one (or, really, two) of them.

So, I am going to open it up for all to speak their minds on the subject. Leave a comment and tell me what you think... and NO bashing others' opinions. We all have a right to have our own thoughts and peacefully speak our minds.

And now, I am going to bed to continually ponder this event (as I have been doing every day since last Friday...). lol

<3 Jade